LARRY: YOU ARE CORNY. BUT YOU ARE THE BIGGEST MACK DADDY I HAVE EVER MET.

Now That I've made that announcement, on to more important things.
I still have a crush
Someone (supposidly) has a crush on me BUT NO ONE KNOWS ANYTHING ABOUT HIM.
Cori has a crush, but EVERYONE KNOWS EVERYTHING ABOUT IT.

And that's all thats important. Other than SCHOOL SUCKS AND I WANNA DROP OUT AND HIDE IN A CORNER FOR THE REST OF MY NATURAL LIFE.

And if I hear one more person say "HEY YOU'RE THAT CHICK ON T.V.!!!" I will have to do something about that... Maybe I should wear a disguise....

Everyone should come to my church
Sundays At 11 in franklin square confrence center... or you should all go to your own church... but everyone needs Jesus... and Church is the maison D' Jesus

Okay I'm done.. other than mentioning that I hurt (from Volleyball). OOH! and Mr."sure-I'll-agree-to-take-you-to-YOUR-junior-prom-without-any-persuasion-2-days-before-prom" (A.K.A. Mr. Navydude) (previously unmentioned) CALLED MY HOUSE TO ASK IF HE MIGHT WRITE ME! HE ASKED MY MOM PERMISSION TO WRITE ME FROM BOOTCAMP!!! HOW COOL???!!! I fell like I'm being courted... Goin' Courtin' Goin' Courtin' Oh It Sets your senses in a whirl... Da Da Da Dum Da Da Da Dum...

READ LUKE 7... it's cool. I love Him lots and He's Forgiven SOOOOOO MUCH!

GRRR. I think I hate being an ex more than I hate having crushes. "Sure, Mr. Heartbreaker, why don't you come over and see my new guitar, just one more way you get to see me unskilled and vunerable and I'll just act like it doesn't phase me at all to spend time around you, watching you do THE SEXIEST THING IN THE WORLD". (P.S. I love guys with guitars...) (P.S.S. I love guys.) That was dumb of me. Very dumb of me. When he left I felt fine. It was the first time we had every hung out where we were just hanging out. But who am I kidding? I love him, I'll always love him. He's my Mr.bunny (don't ask). The only thing in the world I want so badly to do is to forget him and it sucks knowing that I NEVER WILL. NEVER. Maybe thats why these crushes suck. Because no one will ever be another Mr. Heartbreaker. No matter how perfect someone seems for me or just in general, the love I have for them will never compare to the love I have for Mr. Heartbreaker. Likewise, it's painful to know that the love I have for Mr. Heartbreaker will never be "allowed". That's it. I don't have time for this lovey-dovey crap this year. I have to get ready for boot camp. I give up. For real for real. I'm done with men...

P.S. I hate crushes AND ex boyfriends.... :( Mostly for the same reasons.

**Facts of Life**
1. At least 5 people in this world, love you so much they would die for you. (JESUS DID DIE FOR YOU!)
2. At least 15 people in this world love you, in some way. (JESUS LOVES YOU IN EVERY WAY)
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you, is because they want to be
just like you. (YOU SHOULD WANT TO BE JUST LIKE CHRIST)
4. A smile from you, can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like
you. (SO SMILE- IT DON'T HURT!)
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6.You mean the world to someone. (MAKE JESUS YOUR WORLD)
7. Without you, someone may not be living. (IF NOT FOR JESUS, YOU WOULDN"T BE LIVING)
8. You are special and unique, in your own way.( MADE IN THE IMAGE OF GOD)
9. Someone that you don't know even exists, loves you. (IF YOU DON'T KNOW CHRIST-KNOW THAT HE LOVES YOU)
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
11. When you think the world has turned it's back on you, take a look, you
most likely turned your back on the world.(AND/OR JESUS)
12. Always remember complements you received, forget about the rude remarks.
13. Always tell someone how you feel, then they'll know. (Yeah, right. Crushes are soooo much more fun when they're secret.)
14. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they're
great. (THANK YOU JESUS)
:)

1corinthians 13 4-7
Ok you know what? It ABSOLUTELY SUCKS being a teenage girl. I HATE HAVING CRUSHES. I know I've touched on this before (and how sad that within 4 entries I have to start repeating things but whatever) but it's REALLY HORRIBLY ANNOYING to not be able to focus on anything other than boys. Well, A BOY, not boys in general. A man really, wherein lies the problem. The guy I like is a real live MAN. like over 20 way out of my league older dude. So depressing. Horrors of Horrors, THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO TO AVOID HIM. Dern my church family. Not that I would particulary SEEK to avoid him, but it might help not having to see him every week AND it might help if he weren't so completely normal with me. I wish that guys that I know didn't like me would draw the line, you know? Like literally say to me "GO HOME LITTLE GIRL, I HEAR YOUR MOMMY CALLING" (and then proceed to give me a pat on the head for added effect). It would make it sooooooooo much easier to just KNOW from him that he can't stand me. But he CAN stand me, he's nice to me! AND I'M GOING NUTS. Oh well. I never was too good with guys. I never will be. No big surprise there. Alright, I'm done whining. I broke my glasses and my head hurts from squinting, so I think it's time to call it a day. :( only 5 days till school.... mar....

I forgot something: Isaiah. All of it. It will change your life.

BLAH!
I never realized how much I must annoy people. I mean, I know i have my little quirks, but quirks are what make us different, right? They're what make us unique.... Right?

Honestly I mean absolutely no harm when I do things to act cute and presumptuous and flirty and--oh no, I am annoying aren't I? Oh well, if I can deal with hanging out with myself 24/7, then everyone else can handle the hour or two a week they have to spend with me. and if you can't then bugger off...

okay so I'm not sure what to write, so I'm just going to write everything, and leave out any names. Mr.heartbreaker, formerly known in my private journal as "mr. I'm-going-to-break-up-with-you-because-you-won't-have-sex-with-me-and-then-tell-you-I'm-gay" (shortened for obvious reasons) says it's all my fault. Maybe it is. Maybe I did do something wrong. Maybe I need to learn how to... how to.... oh hell, how not to piss everyone off... So then I'm left wondering A) how NOT to piss everyone off and B) why's it my fault? Oh no what a horrible person I want everyone around me to be happy. Oh no, shoot me in the foot, I'm immature and flighty and maroonish. So, okay I'll take the blame THIS time. But I can't be blamed for the first time. No I WON'T BE. I cried so long the first time we broke up, all my guilt melted under the saline. So screw that.

AND NOW FOR SOMETHING COMPLETELY DIFFERENT>
I have a crush. I hate crushes. I'm such a teenage girl. I wish I could just foget about liking guys. ESPECIALLY perfect guys that go "eww, who created that thing" when they see me and/or listen to me talk.

Again, informal and poorly handled subject change here, how do you tell a guy you were never goingout, You were just "talking"? this guy likes me and I don't think he realizes that I'm not QUITE into him...

Screw guys, you're too much damn work...

Maybe I should delete this whole entry, it makes me sound so... blah. oh well 2 corinthians 12;10...